Too Hard to say Goodbye...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

I always knew this day would come..hm but this time it would be different..or maybe a bit special..no..its too special..i got a wonderful coor before this, but she doesnt seem to care about me after i got worse result on my first test during my first sem :( maybe its just my feeling :' so i might miss her a bit, and i love her because of her kind heart..we've been together for a year, then she left us..

And today, once again we lost our coor..che was the best coor i've ever had..she never get tired to repeat the same advice, same reminders each time we met...even though she knows i already too tired to listen..i might offend her sometimes but she never shows her broken side..my pointer was dropped during my second sem, and since then, she always met me privately, and kept pushing me to study harder, putting her trust on me like i'll bring miracle to her someday..

Of course she put me on a big confusion..i'm a lazy but i wanna be what she want me to..whenever i feel lost, she put my strength back together..and damn, she made me love her..and i hate it..i hate to have another special person in my life..bcos i know, she will leave me someday..its not about the best will stay..its about Allah just lend me wonderful persons for me to appreciate and cherish our moments together by reminding each other about Him..

As her wish, alhamdulillah i did rise up my pointer back..i extremely happy and she's the first person i thanked to..if its not bcos of her, i wouldnt make it..even though she kept saying it was my own effort, but i made my effort bcos of her advices..i just thought of her never gave up on me, then why should i gave up my studies? 

I did study for my parents, my family, my future and my own self..but if i never met her, i dont think i'll study hard until my last sem..having her was a miracle..thankyou Allah for sending me the right one at the right moment..even its for a year like before, its worth 100 years towards future..i'll try to study harder and in shaa Allah, i would like to further my studies oversea, like once i admit her i do want to go far..

To my dearest little Miss Khairunnisah, youre too worth to let go, but fate decided we met for only 365days..i hope to see you again one day..i'm sorry whenever i broke you, i'm sorry for the wrongs i've done..i'm sorry for every single mess i've caused..thankyou for always be my supporter, my castle in the air-dreamer, my annoying alarm and everything..thankyou so munch..i'll never forget your kindness, your words and your care, may Allah repay everything you've done to me..

study hard, like you always told me..put your strength together, like you always did to me..i count on you everytime, like you always count on me..and i never stop worrying you, like you always did each time you think of me..fihifzillah wa amanillah, Allah yuftah alaik, in shaa Allah..take care and farewell, Miss..

Last precious moment 💔

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my come back ahaks "

Bismillah pembuka bicara...

Macam dah setahun je ta jejak blog eheh tangan rasa miang na belasah keyboard..banyak sangat ceritera hati yang ta terluah dek kerana kebizian lately..fyi, i just finished my 3rd sem..so next week bermula la kisah sem 4 pulak..masalahnya sem dua ngan tiga aku dah missed blog ni..kang sem 4 cemana pulak? Kalo na bercerita takkan terus sem4 punya cerita en..haih haha takpelah sesekali aku buat throwback post :)

Ekceli, aku sendiri tertanya2 awat ayat aku ni macam ada ramai je readers yang menanti post aku ahaks *mukatahi* so sebelum makin besar tanda tanya ni bermukim dihati, biar aku jujur dulu..ekceli aku memang suka bercerita, sangat banyak yang aku nak cerita and kalo boleh takda sehari pun aku nak missed bercerita ni huhu..tapi aku taktau na cerita pada siapa..motif aku tulis kat blog hanya laa untuk mengurangkan sikit tabiat bercakap aku yang susah na berjumpa khatimah nya hihi..so biarlah aku berimaginasi dalam awan aku sendiri, kau na sebok buat hape *mukasuci*

Haih apa aku merapu pun aku taktau lah..tadi punya banyak benda nak taip tapi tetiba mata bagai ditiup angin manja yang memaksa aku kerdipkan mata dan menganga bak singa bisu kuikui.. izinkan saya beradu dulu ya *flyingkickonyourcheek*

Terima kasih sudi baca blog merapu bak tukang sapu lemak tak tepu :) 

Ilalliqa' on the next post *lambaitangan* #npbackground:terimakasihcinta